Thursday, January 9, 2014

What did I do to deserve this?

What did I do to deserve a kid with special needs?

What did I do to deserve a kid that cannot express himself well enough to have a conversation?

What did I do to deserve a kid who cannot reciprocate my feelings of love?

What did I do to deserve a kid who can only think literally, a kid who never "gets" a joke, a kid who can never think "outside the box" or understand an idiom unless it is explained to him?

What did I do to deserve a kid that cannot empathize or sympathize with others, a kid who will never be able to see someone else’s perspective?

What did I do to deserve a kid that was so hard to potty train; a kid who wet the bed until he was as tall as I am?

What did I do to deserve a kid who cannot brush his own teeth or bathe himself without help?

What did I do to deserve all the doctor bills and therapy appointments that come with a child with special needs?

What did I do to deserve all the early morning wake ups and middle of the night interruptions?

What did I do to deserve a kid with irrational fears and unexplainable obsessions?

What did I do to deserve a kid whose diet is so limited I can list what he will eat on a very small piece of paper?

What did I do to deserve a kid that cannot make a new friend or maintain a friendship?

What did I do to deserve a kid who needs a special education teacher and his own one-on-one paraprofessional to be able to go to public school?

What did I do to deserve a kid who is a second or third grader on the inside, a sixth grader in age, and taller than all the adults in his life? 

What did I do to deserve all the lessons he has taught me?

What did I do to deserve all the friends I have made and the relationships I have ONLY because of him?

What did I do to deserve all the laughter?

What did I do to deserve a heart that swells with love every time I look at my special kid? 

I am so glad that God does not give us what we really deserve because if He did, I would never have been entrusted to care for and love a child as special as mine. 



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5 comments:

  1. Why did he "deserve" this? I ask myself of my Grandson's Autism. I live for him. I would give all for his success and Independence in life. I wish there were 2 of me. And both would still be here for him. He's creative,can express himself,very independent with ADL's. He is also happy, loves school and does sports. He has no worries about what tomorrow may bring. He's taught me to live in the moment.

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  2. Why did he "deserve" this? I ask myself of my Grandson's Autism. I live for him. I would give all for his success and Independence in life. I wish there were 2 of me. And both would still be here for him. He's creative,can express himself,very independent with ADL's. He is also happy, loves school and does sports. He has no worries about what tomorrow may bring. He's taught me to live in the moment.

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  3. Why did he "deserve" this? I ask myself of my Grandson's Autism. I live for him. I would give all for his success and Independence in life. I wish there were 2 of me. And both would still be here for him. He's creative,can express himself,very independent with ADL's. He is also happy, loves school and does sports. He has no worries about what tomorrow may bring. He's taught me to live in the moment.

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  4. Why did he "deserve" this? I ask myself of my Grandson's Autism. I live for him. I would give all for his success and Independence in life. I wish there were 2 of me. And both would still be here for him. He's creative,can express himself,very independent with ADL's. He is also happy, loves school and does sports. He has no worries about what tomorrow may bring. He's taught me to live in the moment.

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