My fourteen-year-old son Tate has autism and my eleven-year-old adopted daughter has Fetal Alcohol Syndrome (FAS). I blog about them, the things we have done that have helped and the things that have not helped: the lessons we have learned, their siblings, classmates, teachers, IEPs, and many other things that have come with the experience of raising these special children. I do this for many reasons. I hope to help those who do not live with autism or FAS to understand a little bit better what these disabilities look like. I also try to help those who are coming after us so they can draw from some of our experiences, perhaps making their own lives just a little bit easier.
I do not claim to know everything and I often remind people that I am just a mom. I am not a doctor, an educator, or a therapist, and I am not formally trained to help anyone. I just know what autism looks like in my son and what FAS has done to my little girl. I have years of experience to share. The ideas and methods we used are not something I believe must be followed to achieve success. I know sometimes there is more than one solution to each problem we encounter and I know the individuality of a child and their family should be considered. There. This paragraph is my disclaimer. So please no messages about how I’m doing it all wrong or that I'm judging you for doing it differently...
|Tate, around the time of his diagnosis|
I have often heard, “Every behavior has a purpose.” ABA therapy revolves around this and I do not disagree. ABA also says that the stereotypic behavior serves a purpose of some kind but that behavior can be replaced with one that will serve the same purpose. In other words, "If you eliminate one stim then it will be replaced with another." I found this to be true. Tate still stims but his stims are subtle and they do not keep himself or those around him from learning or engaging in activities or with other people. It took a lot of hard work to eliminate some of Tate’s former stereotypic behaviors but I am not sorry we did it. In my opinion the hand flapping was not in Tate’s best interest.
Anytime I write about this I get objections from a few parents who do not understand why I stopped Tate from hand flapping when he was a preschooler. I hear: “It’s not hurting anyone.” And then there is: “I would never ask my child to stop doing something that was calming/comforting/pleasurable/satisfying to him/her.” Really? Are those statements even valid? What if your child were pulling his sibling’s hair? It is a behavior that he finds satisfying, right? Of course you would stop him from doing that because it hurts another person. Would you do your best to stop your child from smearing his feces? You would? Okay. You would want to stop him from doing something that was unhealthy. How about head banging? If he were banging his head on the floor over and over then would you stop him from doing that? You’d block him. You’d put a helmet on him. Is it because it is harmful to him? So there are SOME things you would try to redirect but not others. Hand flapping. Hand flapping is acceptable to you because it is not hurting your child. It is not filthy. It is not hurting a sibling. Perhaps your child can learn while he is hand flapping. Mine could not. When Tate hand flapped it did hurt him. It consumed him. It kept him from learning. Our goal was to make every minute of his day a learning experience. He could hand flap, fan the pages of a book, wave his cloth diaper in front of his face, stare at his reflection, or run “without purpose” for thirty minutes to an hour at a time. The more Tate stimmed, the more he wanted to stim. The stereotypic behavior itself was reinforcing. It was a habit. The more Tate engaged in stereotypic behaviors the less opportunities he had to engage with his peers. His peers saw the hand flapping and some of the behaviors as odd and they approached Tate less because of it. The stereotypic behaviors were sabotaging so much of Tate’s social and academic education. As difficult as it was to get four and five year olds to look past the stereotypic behaviors, I imagined it would be infinitely harder to get peers in Junior High to be understanding of it. Perhaps Tate would have just "outgrown" the behaviors like hand flapping. Some children do. But some do not. I was not willing to risk it and have to look back and wish I had tried to eliminate them. We replaced the more obvious stims with much less obvious ones that still serve the purpose he needed them for.
|Sydney, age one|
Sydney came to us with stims too and I worked hard to eliminate those. Being neglected for the first ten and a half months of her life she spent much of her day rocking. The rocking had a purpose. Children who are neglected find ways to stimulate, and occupy themselves, and comfort themselves. After we got Sydney home and I knew she was provided with all the things she needed to thrive I worked constantly at gently stopping her when she rocked. It did not take very many weeks to stop the rocking. I am so thankful I did what I did as I have seen another adopted child older than Sydney who still rocks. The advice that child’s parents got was to allow the rocking because it fulfilled a need. I feel the need could have been fulfilled in other ways. I could be wrong. I'm not an expert. But in my experience with my children: the longer a behavior goes on the harder it will be to stop.
Some might think I was mean or intolerant. Some might call what I did "tough love." Once a mom who was upset with me for a blog post I wrote implied she loved her child more than I loved mine because she embraced his stimming. She said, "I love my child enough to let him stim." I wish I had said, "I loved mine enough to help him to stop." but I am never good at witty comebacks. There is no doubt in my mind that we all love our children immensely regardless of our position on this subject and others. It does not mean you are a better parent if you let your child hand flap or rock. It does not mean I am a better parent if I stop mine from doing it. We all want what is best for our children. I drew the line before some others would I am sure. Some might draw it before head banging or hair pulling but I drew it before hand flapping and rocking. And I do not regret it. I cannot go back and do it another way to try and see which way worked best. I am glad I do not have to. It was hard work. It would have been much easier in the short term to let Tate spend his days tossing his cloth diaper around and hand flapping. It would have been so much easier in the short term to let Sydney sit in her playpen and rock. But would I have kids as high functioning as I have now? What do you think?
There are a few things I have changed my opinion about and wish I had done differently. I will have a post up about that soon. I had originally thought I would talk about those things in this post too but I am told a post more than 1000 words is too long. So stay tuned…